For Once I Was Selfish

Ya know, this whole being selfish thing kind of sucks. Sometimes what you need to do to eventually live the life that you have in mind, you have to do what is best for you. In the process, the ones you have tried so hard to keep happy and sacrifice your happiness for end up getting hurt. And that just really sucks. I guess the whole point of being selfish is doing what YOU need to do and what is going to make you happy because the ultimate goal is to make yourself happy.
When you have been used to making other people so happy for all of your life, it is really hard to let go and do something for you for once. I think it shows growth though. You have to make so yourself so uncomfortable with a decision that causes so much pain to someone else. In the process you end up hurt. I'm sure eventually things work how with how they are supposed to, but either way you are unhappy at some point, so I guess sooner is better than later in this case. You do not want to end up later in life regretting not doing the things you wanted to do in order to please someone else. Because once you sacrifice long term happiness you end up with resentment. No one wants to be in a relationship filled with that crap. Focusing on the here and now does not let you visualize the big life picture. Embrace the suckiness and know that if things were are to happen they shall. Life has a funny way of doing whatever the hell it wants regardless of your decisions because one way or another things find their way back.